Sometimes I question my sanity.

Today was the first day of my first official semester in nursing school.  I was excited when I went to bed and my tummy was all a-flutter in ways I haven't experienced since high school.

At least that's what I thought it was.  About an hour later I was in the bathroom praying to God to "please let me die now, it would just be easier that way." Apparently God was not interested in granting that wish because I am here typing this for you to read.

I spent the remainder of the night in and out of bed that way and come morning I was exhausted.  Now, I am nervous AND wiped out and still feeling a little queasy.  I'd like to come face to face with the little virus who held court over my innards last night because he was a mighty foe. 

Fast forward to 9:30 am today and I am sitting in a room with 32 other bright shiny new nursing students and we are about to get the rude awakening of our lives.  A 6 hour orientation to what felt like the entire nursing course but what was actually only one of our 5 classes.  Holy. Cow. I kept saying to the girls around me, "How can this be only one class???  WHAT IS YET TO COME THIS WEEK???  They kept looking back at me in fear, the same look I am sure I was giving them. All the while the evil virus was lurking about making his presence known with occasional waves of nausea. 



I should be thankful.  I AM thankful.  I will be thankful.  Tomorrow.  After I have had a good nights sleep and...oh wait. Tomorrow I start my Military physical fitness class.  Maybe I will be thankful on Thursday...

Repeat after me: May 13, 2012.  May 13, 2012.  May 13, 2012.  I will graduate with honors thankyouverymuch.


I can do this.  I can. I will. I must.


 

This schedule may prove to be too much

I thought I could pull it off. Two online classes plus two in class audits, how hard could it be?

Apparently a lot harder than I anticipated. These online classes are taking ALL of my free time and after I sit through these fairly intense lectures on Anatomy and Microbiology the last thing I want to do is read difficult philosophy or religion texts and write about them. I think I am going to have to give up on the auditing. As much as I think it would be helpful to me, I really want to keep my GPA up for my real classes and I just got a B- on my first religion paper. (boo.) I can rewrite it and he gave me suggestions on how to improve it but SHEESH. B-? I have never gotten a B- on an essay before. I really need to focus and with our upcoming schedule it's going to be nearly impossible (houseguests, boating weekends etc.) I understand that these profs feel like they need to cram a semester worth of info into 6 weeks, but do they REALLY have to cram a semester's worth in? I don't think so.

*sigh* I haven't even started my Religion reading yet and I have my first assignment due tomorrow. And I have to write my first Philosophy paper by noon tomorrow and I am really struggling with the text, why can't these people just SPEAK ENGLISH? Fortunately I ran into my Philosophy Prof at GU today and we had a nice chat. He seems to like what I have done so far so I think I will be ok, he gave me some tips on how to write but it is still really hard stuff. He knows that though so I will just do my best.

Ugh. I just want to get to the nursing stuff. Even though that will be hard, at least it will make sense.

Dear John Stuart Mill

While I appreciate that you may be a brilliant 19th century philosopher, in the words of a brilliant 21st century philosopher, I dedicate this song to you.

Please. For the love of all that is good and right in the world and for my sanity. Say what you need to say and GET ON WITH IT!!

*headdesk*